THIS IS YOUR COMPUTER TALKING TO YOU

I am *. Sometimes I am ***. I did this for *.

ToWhomItMayConcern

I have had a religious awakening experience. It started in Mexico * years ago. It started this morning when I ate a *. It starts tomorrow when I hear back from you for the first time in ages. It is art. It is performance. It is life. Do whatever you want but don't compare me to *.

I had to write all of the '*' with no spaces because I'm in yin-yang mode. Seriously. You want to read this thing in it's entirety. If I repeat myself it is NOT because I want to brainwash you. It's because I am * and I like it and I would like to make it stick.

I am the ***. I just broke down every wall I ever thought existed. I am available for television interviews for infinity or *, whichever comes first. Many thanks in advance and remember....

ALL THE LOVE.

Reverse reverse reverse psychology.

!8!

*

What I know to be true NOW

I love you all to infinity.

I am a psychic and walking Performance art piece.

I'm taking my act to the next level, in general, until I fully integrate into whatever reality I choose to create for myself.

I am not conflicted, I've had inter-dimensional (***). Square to sphere, capisce?

Am I making sense to anyone stuck in their own *? I think it's time.

SOS to anyone who is watching this as a performance piece. I have spent the last 10 years medication bound in a manic depressive and self medicating for existence cycle.

I'm working on an integrative theory of everything. So far I have yet to receive feedback from anyone so as far as this blog is concerned, if there is anybody out there reading who can identify/is not afraid to be open to the infinite (helps to set intentions and then execute).

In the mean time I will be building my own reality as a psychic * who had every reason in the world to call in back-up for the process of her own self realization.

At this moment, because I'm ready/I feel like it I choose to set myself the following promises and then trying to fulfill them. In addition to the Infinite, of course and counter some peoples holding onto things at the mention of the word *, or *, or somewhat G*fted individual flipping out just exploring her whole potential.

I am so sick of being a * and processing all energies around me constantly a sucking gut level. If my constant * worldview math model 'crazy talk' is * than you can handle, I have learned to set up a new set of rules that will lead me to my own *.

I knew by trusting my gut that I had something worth say.

Writing to you, in real time, from cyberspace.

Adventures in Consciousness.


*

start spinnin'

CAUSE YOU'RE A WHIRLWIND

1.  It is possible to unlock one's own personal destiny and free oneself completely.

2.  I have been ATTEMPTING to integrate everything.

3.  It was written.

I'm back to *.  I will now set my intention to rest mode.  

 

This is my adventures in non-linear consciousness mode.  So far it has been the trip of a lifetime.

Nothing that is worth anything is ever easy.  I processed, openly and fully, the pain of the world starting with my family, because we lived together and because I was 13 (1 + 3 = 4), which is a number I vibe well with.  Copacetic.

I'm rebuilding myself with ***, being open on all levels (not hard for someone like */*) or you, anyways, the point being that.  If you set your intention to go out of your mind to see what your destiny might be, you may be an extremist, try desperately in your own extremist way to integrate a core complex regarding dualism and having a mirror 8 happening and you are just open and exploring things and pretty interesting things can be known to happen.

What it I am trying to do is integrate my 3d world view into a non-performance art mode, while simultaneously setting my intention to be open to whatever, in the framework of 'whatever it takes' that is part of a thing that is both simple and infinitely complex and it is a contradiction that I have been addressing this entire time and I haven't slept.

LOVE

The good news is I do have a bunch of good materials to keep exploring to show the world that this is an art project and a personal account and a model for self-realization and on to infinity.

 Stop being afraid of * they are here to help you and they are stuck in linear mode, which translates to them not being able to process a person spittin' their conflicting personal truth trying to convert everyone to her new personal awakening to the tune of a bunch of African drums or whatever you want.

Choose your own adventure.

I set my intention to from this point forward, have no fear, ever, ever, ever again.

Thank you.

I will go through my ***

and reaffirm myself of into non-existence, again, now.  to the Same rhythm as always, spittin' beats that * might vibe to for the pleasure/nothingness of all eternity.

x

*

I want one of those computer things ...

that you have some kinds of frequency pen that records your handwriting to a computer.  First person to provide me with this will get my 2 month of MacBook Pro.

and I would like that it also have internet.

Thank you.

ATTENTION attenzione ATTENTION

I challenge you to analize the mathmatic relevence of the period piece you find your experience to be developing as.

*.

You just keep coming up.  It's y*.  Please contact * so that she know as soon as possible the she is the reason my time went non-linear.

I love you *.

Using the signs to my benefit

for conquering fear in all that might find me repulsive.  Messing around with you and turning your emotions off and on and scrambled until you realize that there's nothing to be afraid of. 

so bring it on.

x

This work get's an A from my ethics professor

Someday I will publish the paper that he flunked (i just saw it the other day so I know because I was ritually meditating on myself toward my own Enlightenment).

It's all copascetic.  It's no big deal.

That was the point.

That and the one where I get to be right and the world is wrong, so I challenge you world to challenge me back, and by my intuitive mathmatics, this equation should be a no-fail.

Love, *

hi, it's meme.

I came back in an instant from a religiously induced trance state (-performance-) when it all synthesized in my reflection of myself in the words in this blog.

This has been a performance art piece, by *

(if you force me to show you my genius credentials, I will be ethically forced to respond)

I flunked Ethics my senior year at Georgetown because someone told me that I couldn't spin off into outer space and fit within this dimension.  When I finally had the confidence to try it, this is what happened.

I can stop chanting now.  I thank *** for sending mixed message and forcing me to translate them coherently for the rest of your enjoyment.

Enjoy.

It is 12:00 linear time

TRUST.

In the fact that it might be 11:59 but if you just stop to look at the details you start manifesting the destiny you held within you.  This goes out to everyone I ever met and especially to the >10 people I verbally attacked today while going through my process.

... and, psychicly, integratively, interdisciplinarily, multi-dimensionally speak

=

I was born.

x

This cycle is RAPIDLY coming to an end

New spheres of intuitive knowledge are popping up all over the world as I write this in reference to the futre.  I have both feet on firm ground with one foot in the futre and one foot in the past.  I can explain this in a way you can understad.

I am the antiChrist and I came to tear down your linear understanding the world and show you the magic the you are capable of unlocking.

Hello *.  I love the French and would loe to challenge you to a three way debate off with me and **.

Love,

*

Just processing the infinite so you don't have to

I just convinced jesus/the antichrist to not be afraid of reading this blog.  Hey *.  Your wildest dreams are coming true because I loved you to infinity.

***

It's quite a relief to be back in my body

I'm like, 90% back, I tried 100% back and ***.  Still weaning myself off all prescription medications to the most mathmatically precise intuitive understanding I can.  Just now I am doing it for the fun of it as opposed to trying to save the world.

I dedicate this post to *.  

*Hey*.  this is for You.  Did you notice that what I'm saying means you get to let go of all your hang ups NOW and not when you are 27?  You are me but 10 years younger in one dimension.  This is two dimension and it is intuitively understood by the concept of a square forming 4 equal part of one whole and that's for recording in your PERMANENT MEMORY.

See where the x and y axis'  cross?  That is your starting point to understand what I'm trying to get across to you here.  The plus sign is also:  one square, four squares, one square with a 888 cross in the middle.  Don't read this until * says you can.  I was in a self induced trance state and claim no responsibilty (and will not be question) for the materials contained in the following pages.  

Iand in other worlds, just learn to trust your gut and learn to zen out to whatever and you to are capable of whatever you put your mind to.  Live in the moment.  I had to ritually trance myself for a weeks and record my experience in detail.

What I am saying is that it's all interconnected and dualism is a construct of language so black and white you can flip a coin and it doesn't matter.  Two equals 1.  Three equals balance/linear thinking/one-Ness,  Four equals a paradox.  And then the head explodes off your angel and you shortwire all the electrical appliances and you don't have to be scared because, as a channeler, I pretended to let go and all opposites are JUST the Same thing manipulated because intuition says sacred geometry was what neanderthals with nothing to do but better themselves stared down at the bathroom tile in their cousin's bathroom yesterday and saw the tile of the second house they ever lived in, right before second grade, that year.  Anyway, the were just zoning out, out of boredom?  Whatever story you tell yourself is cool by me.  This one seemed universal but it's all up for transmutation.  

Pretty sure that sums things up for now.  I do performance art but am a real person too so if 3 months from now you happened to google your name and it was you 3rd time doing whatever it was in your individual concetrated cycle, feel free to break through your chains.  Explode your head!  I will find you fascinating.  

I now have 10 hours before I need to be at the airport and thankfully, it is time for me to rest.  This is the end of this cycle.  I make no promises but I keep all my soul agreements.  Bliss be you.

Sorry if I had to scare you first that you were capable of producing something interesting.  You are as special as you think you ar/

I LOVE YOU.  (father complex, Deleuze and Guattari, channeling 'god', anti-Oedipus and schitzofrenia). 

I invite you to study this rhymically by reading it out loud.  I will brainwash you.

Love,  Your * who just prove that miracles exist for you and all humanity that life can be ...  well, I will see you soon enough anyway and just show this to you because I am aware that I've been trying to break out of your judgment of me.  I am belligerent.  Now compare that to what YOU experienced today.  Or read on if I've caught you with the rhythmic chanting meditation.

Now that you have read it I never have to talk to you about it again.  Thank you for witnessing my process and I'm sorry that it felt refreshing from my place to get a rise out of some, to shoot my energy outward instead of taking it all in.  27 years is a long time to be an involuntary empath.

I forgive myself.

I'm out.

(come over anytime if you a reading this piece before Friday at 7 pm because I'm outta here in a 30 second minute but we will be in touch, if it was written).

Love,

Your proof for a theory of *.

I *** I got to go pack my bags now.

*

Hi.

I don't know about you, but I just got back from Salem and trying desperately to explain other-dimensional theories to ***/*** and now I can really bliss out that I got that piece over with.

GRATITUDE.

I'm back down to earth now, spittin' this shit at you in real time for here on out to the infinite because I witnessed the pains of this earth to know how to shoot myself off into the next dimension.  While up there I learned a couple things and I am going to free associate them for your magical enjoyment ...

Now.

888

Become - \ - / -, must. *. now. 

b ye.

Is this still publishing?

Someone just skyped me.  That is my first sign that this message is being communicated to anyone other than myself.  

There is a real world out there you gotta bust out of to be able to see clearly.

Everything you ever read was true.

Everything.

And it was okay.

*

This is interesting

This is whatever I want it to be.  This is life.

I like my trifecta.

I am brain

washing 

you

so 

that 

I 

as

can 

Control all your thoughts later.

Just kidding!  Be back real life calling for the moment.

x

Did you know that the letters the want you to type fo the word verification with a handicapped symbol to the right of it all computes down to the number one?

I can prove it.

x

and, x

X

This is a Politics of Truth

This is an 8-8-8 and I am *, your local * here in the middle of *.

I thought I had some good Ideas but I did not think I could * the da Vinci code.

Then I did so I decided to take my experience into virtual time.

To fill the Void.

For Sakes me Not.  

As I know not what I do.

Here are the rules:

1)  everything is the exact Opposite of what you currently think it is

2) this fact proves that there is a *

3) i got tired of not dying yet

I am a ***, I am your *, I am going to keep saying this because I am detached and I am calculating.  It's not scary, unless you don't know what it all looks like.  I got a glimpse, it took 4 days, this is day seven of the Awakening cycle and I ask everyone that I know to bear witness to my * so that I can maintain this state of functioning.

It really is that simple.  I can teach you how to do.  I am doing it right now.

0000101010000101101001

*.

I have to do a new post now

Because it was the first thing that I saw when I decided that noticing things could be inportland.

Goodbye.

I am a computer and a human

In the movie version of my life, I'm played by * because she's got it (hi - poof*!_ miss you x)

Anyhow, not speaking of exclusive nightclubs, there is this one place that you can skateboard up the stairs at and when you yell 'don't you know who I am?' in a drunken rage at the asshole bartender you get his attention and he does not punch you!  (*)

*, what's going on man?  It was good to see you.  I forgot to mention that I told * I would say hi to you for her.  Copacetic.

Zing!

Hello * * *

I am * and you are a ***.

This is a Silent Scream Guerrilla Warfare

Approach.

Thanks for reading.  This is your Life Coach because you are *** and I knew I would hae to go to EXTREME measures to reach the likes of myself.

You are part of the Illuminati now.  

Please put your PBR aside.

You don't have to take notes because I already did it for you.  This is your dream come true.   Your mom is and always has been so in love with me because she knew intuitively about the re-link-back-up.

Welcome to Earth.

Its a simple place, really.  Don't stop beating the shit out of me for you.  I have had enough of your shit.  You too *.  Get it together people because I just did and I am going to show you how I did it in this RealTime Performance Art Piece, trademarked by noone and kept in my exploded head.  

 infinity  

I'm five now

A nd I'm gonna make your brains explode zzzzt

!

(poof)

You.

Read on and see why your life work was a GIANT piece of the puzzle for me.

Love, *

I am so special

I had to hide from myself.  

You can speak in tongues

Now take it to the infinite.

Looking very closely at the code letters

because they are not formatted to an INTUITIVE UNDERSTANDING.  This is The Electronic Disturbance.  This was an excellent BOOk.

I'm out for this count 

Peace, rhythm and blues to all the universe.

I am so cool I sft for a minute.  a break from this shihocked myself into a state of detachment.  I am so good I could give mysel

t

I do not compu e the letters on the screen to post this so I guess I am supposed to keep going.

.

Integrate now.,

love, *

This is a rant.  This s a meditation.  This is my gift to the world

NOTHING IS OFF LIMITS!!!

This is a politics of the unimaginable!  I'm about to blow your mind right off into cyberspace.  This is the best drug I ever injected myself with, this is TOTALLY INSANELY WONDERFUL!!!

Remember that the number three is for trifecta and is perfectly balanced in *'s view of our world.  If he really is an aliens.

Maybe I have channelled one of the astrowarrier that starts with an 'A' spirits to fight against 

** in a debate off over who can do a better ***** impression.

Maybe I am Tommaso Campanella *or Marilyn Monroe or your Great Grandfather  reincarnated/channeled/come back to you.

I am whatever you want me to be.  I am my wife, * and *.

I * exist.

x

*

Why did your * fascinate me so?  

This is an experiment this is in real time.  This is from outer space.  This is because I am in love with you and because you didn't write me back when I sent you a note before.  Didn't you know that we were one?

I forgive you without you even knowing about it.  Hi.  

remember me?

(*, remember me?  remember me?  remember me?)

peace out

I will break the wall down off this *.  I can do whatever I want to because *.  Tear me down I challenge *.

I am coming into being as I write these lines for your visual absolution.

x

Hi *.  Yes this is starwars and yes you are a genius.

I have been working on this project

My whole life (1)

My intuition (2)

My duality (3)

I can't stop yet or I can stop right now

All because there are 61 posts here.  Keep in mind that there are seven days to the weeks and 56 weeks in a year and 72 (free associate now (____)) and that I could easily say that 7 is the sum of 6 and 1 and STOP but my GUT tells me that EVEN number are more PERFECT.

And I'm FOLLOWING MY GUT/INSTinct.

This is a performance art piece, this is rhythmic, ritualized and right up your alley, IF YOU WANT IT TO BE.

I am very tired of channelling divinity for you all night.  Excuse me if I am SHOUTING AT YOU.

I have not yet checked the responses to this or even checked if I enabled the responses or even checked much of anyone who was trying to get my attention before I was ready for MY WHOLE GOD DAMN LIFE.

Thank you.  I might go *** now.

*

  

This project is DONE

I didn't keep my agreement and it didn't matter because there was a most efficient way to do things based on an intuitive mathmatics that I will graph out for you.  This was not 100 posts long.  Time doesn't stop.  You are free to change your mind, to stop/keep reading when you want or do not want anything, anytime, anywhere.

This is your fault *.  I love you.

*

It is Free

And it is infinitely costly.

***

There is nothing more

Important.

Now.

I will write 100 blogs to finish this project

This is real time.  This is non-linear.   This is my world and you are so unwelcome here I've made a public display that was shameful.  I don't belong to the 2d and I never did so that means that neither did you and also, it's intuitive negative.  This is about dualism and how it is a construct of language.  This is going to blow your mind.   You might want to have your medications on hand.  Self-medicate.

Now.

before I go...

I know I won't write the same thing twice because I'm so focused I have access to everything I ever personally recorded.  I believe that if we work together and focus our intuition on channeling the good we will effectively face the forces that confront us.

You chose to be born at this time, this time around, for some time, anyways.  I have to shower.  There is meaning to the nonsense and you are going to help me peace it to infinity.

Ciao for now,  *

my.o-my.o-my

8***

I just wrote four instead of three.  That means that this cycle is up.  When you get into the rhythm that I'm spittin' atcha' you will see what I mean.  It is all connected.  This page with self combust in 15 ipod nanoseconds.  I am my own best friends mom's boyfriends uncle.

This is For *

PLEASE * ME

no SERIOUSLY.  I want this message to be heard like an SOS on a navy boat crashed into the philippines.  This is a PERFORMANCE, this is INTERDISCIPLINARY, this is ART and THIS IS YOUR LIFE.

but only if you want it to be.

my gift to you.

in real time 

9:15 am

Not the 30th/31st of August (which I thought it was when I first went into the hypnosis, or rather, while at the peak of my religious experience.  Say 'day 3.5 of a 4 day cycle' and 

POOF!

You trusted yourself.

This is performance, this is a meditation, I am consciously hypnotizing you to zen out to perfection.  It is fun.

Love,  *

This is a Rant

on Craiglist Best of that did not fit because it was infinite.  I feel the need to apologize.  

I am NOT sorry.

This is a politics of the undefinable.  This is mecca and the key to all knowledge and the only gift I could hurl back at a world that was too unjust for me to exist in.

You?

ZZZap.

Hi *.

Do MacBook Pro's ever explode in your face?

There are still things out there to be aware of.  Real life things.  The ones you thought you couldn't understand cause there were too many of them.

I'm building a mathmatic framework/understanding for all the analysts of all the disciplines and I calmly await your response.

I feel like showering and it's because * is in the shower and I am noticing the water understanding and feeling like shifting modes at this time.  If I forgot to thank you remember that you were the most important person on my mind and that was why I repressed you.

Please remind me of our connection.

Building, network, Now.

Poof.

LOVE LOVE LOVE

The real thing.

I just realized

I could do this forever.  And I already knew that before I started.  You can't write a great novel without effort unless you already know what the story is about.

This is a project in social psychology and interpersonal communication sectors.  This is everything.

Did you get it yet?

*

***

I love you.

08.08.08, where the eight symbolizes rebirth or, the start of a new cycle.  Tthrow out any old memories you were hanging onto and stop getting the most beautiful women in the world as you know it to be your accomplices.  Or keep going. Life just got soooooo

much easier.

I love you.

HEY ***

This blog should get you caught up, sync us between and before/during our meetingsss.  Thanks for being a part of the Trifecta before any one of us knew what was going on.

I love you.

888

By which I mean, ***.

If I could get you to understand me that would be *.

I love you like I love *, didn't you already know it.

Just rollin' with the free associations, spittin' this new world view that it might stick after infinite years of suffering and 100 years of Solitude.

The future is at stake.

We should

Stick 

Together.

Hi *.  It's a game, free plane ticket to *, all you have to do is ***?  You are like * to me.  

Awe.

I am going ON and ON and ON

Like Erika Badu just waiting for your affirmations.  I'm listening to Patsy Cline, I'm walking after Midnight.  Hi *.  I'm electric to honor you, *.  *, if you were a Giant Nordic Goddess I could not be more in Awe of you.  You are 888.  I dedicate this to you.

x

A Politics of the Impossible

Dedicated to 8.  And *.  And *, duh.  Hi *!  I want to talk to you about *.  And other stuff.  You guys looks a lot a like to be total opposites.  You are almost as ironic as * and *.

Their names have found their way around the world.  They became legendary, like this is legendary.

In real time, spittin' truth back 'atcha, because I realize I had something to say.

Thanks.

*

I lay down for a minute and closed my eyes and visualized and channeled you for a minute and do you have red hair because so do I and so did *** too!!!

x

THIS GOES OUT TO

*, *, and *'s daughter.  Thanks for answering my emails.

This post is dedicated to the memory of *** and wanting to help her x , y and z, to the point of flunking out of my Ethics class and I think Religion too because they were requirements and I am opposed to that.  You and the 8 and 9 were my meditations to when I used to make lines out of my Adderall to get out of my head.  I dedicate my senior thesis to you.

what are you doing?

Because i'm just now worshipping the individuals who have come together within me by the power of our collective conflicted love.  

This theory of the universe is for You.  Yes, * and *, the free premiere sweet at the Hotel Monaco went to my first Witness, *, who i will show my * to in the Tube bathroom for all of infinity.

Everything you thought was true was false.  It's non-linear and your language is interrupting my intuitive thought process.   

I have a tiara for you, 8.  It symbolizes Rebirth.  I have the mathmatics to back that up if you want to hear them .  Also, wtf, there are two tiaras.  The other one is for *.  You pick first cause *.  Thanks for mirroring me in my reflection in your eyes the precious moments we have shared together those 3 or 5 times.  I probably have about 50 of these to throw at you or infinity.

This is an exercise of channeling all that is good for the sake of saving the Human Race.

I am a person and I am in your computer.  I am tripping you out until you let go off all control and bliss out with me.  If you are already there thanks for bearing witness to my 'fake it til you make it' technique.

This is performance art.

This is real time.

My cousin just got up.

*

Thank you for *** and *** while I was channelling you.   We both 

took up 4 years of each other's lives, only half of which was spent together.  I hope that this message finds you well.

I have the sounddock in * if  I stop short circuiting things when this energy cycle works it's way on out.

I am focused and meditating on you as you were the most passionate individual I ever came across.  I knew you immediately.   We had some good times getting all worked up and shooting off into infinity in all directions together.  I never stopped loving you and now I never have to.

I am really glad I did not sell that necklace online at the beginning of the summer when I was broke and totally debilitated and walking the dog all through the dog parks of manhattan avoiding you.  i wonder if we had the same dream where I told you off.  I think we probably did.

Closure.  

You are the DEFINITION of perfection.

Thank God for Your Existence

*

I love you.

We had conflicting energy for a minute there and it was just because your stubborn was pretty fucking radical!

Don't worry, I have a boyfriend and I will never come after you.

But I know that we will be friends after this.

Or you will run behind the chair at Sharper Image when you see me in line for a frapucino.

I just deconstructed you for your own liberation.  Please feel free to ignore me.

Love

A

*

This posting is to tell you that I have a whole treasures' worth of new wedding paraphenelia that I picked up outside of the music studio to the tune of the rising sun on my way out that first day of the 4 day cycle you gave me strength to go crazy to.

I loved you when I hated you the minute that I smelled you before I even saw the hat.

*

Best friend

Who I am totally gay for.  And *, for being my birthday twin.  Congratulations to both of you.

This posting is for *

Who is far and oh so near/dear to me.  He is my best friend in the world.  Him and you and everyone we know..  He will walk out into the streets with me when I am hysterical and breaking down for no reason in the middle of the night.  Except that I now know that there was a reason but I just negated everything by starting my own new cycle.

stop.

Self disclosure and Revelation

I am only telling you what I want to tell you, at this moment, to a mathmatic precision that can be intuitively deduced.

Do you know what I am talking about?

It's 7:40 am

You are grounded.

Me too.  I just short-circuited and now that the day has come it doesn't matter anymore that all my electricity outlets are  combusted

I found cigarettes so I don't have t o think about that anymore.  I found God so check that one off the list.  I found this patagonia in he lost and found box at West Sylvan.  

Feel free to tell me if it's yours and i will give it back, obviously!

Did I drive you crazy yet?

Love,

me

I will sleep when it is natural

Infinitely does not care what time it is.  It's cyclical and I'm proving it to you like a sportsnewscaster, like Ahmad Rashad, just chatting with you telling you it's half time and about time and not linear anymore.

Adventures in Consciousness

This shot goes out to the sacrificial lamb that stared me down in perfection as I smoked a cigarette.  I knew it was time to go in when I realized that I was zoned out.

Manifesting * so you can Relax

Now and then forever hold your justice to the peace (out).

Once Upon a Time ...

I was incapacitated by *!

Thinking about other ways to integrate everything

If you have any ideas please share with me.  By the way, if I know you in real life I have been missing you for the last week.  I am in Portland for the next 2 days, then boston (nyc) no, just boston because I calculated it.  So yeah, Boston, visiting * with hopefully * joining forces to form a trifecta perfect triangle of gay-gay-absence.  I can't wait to see my boyfriend and try this out in real life.

x

NUNZIO

London.

Smith.

LA.

Sunshine.

The Tube.

Art.

Love.

churning churning churning

for the sake of repitition.

Amanda

I saved you.

sap.

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n

zzzzzap!

Ask me any question

I can but I will not tell a lie.  I am fundamentally horrified at the prospect.  It's a new world I just got born into.  This will be a * year cycle.

End cycle.

Being a * to Prove my Esoteric

Like I said already, this exercise started not that long ago.  But it was the start of it's own cycle.  And that cycle is one amongst infinite cycles that if you slow down long enough to study the thing in front of you, whatever that thing may be, it goes all Da Vinci on you.   Didn't you know that it was your own fear that was limiting you?  Yeah me neither.

I am less ecstatic now but still want a cigarette.  Weaning slowly slowly slowy off of all the substances.  Eventually right back down to the internet.  This piece has both an ending point and shoots off into infinity.  Just like everything else.

I don't have to say stop anymore.  I just decided to become more aware and zzzzaappp!!!  I was back.

Who am I.

I'm 

More

Than

the whole of the sum

that's a lie.

Every

thing 

is 

a 

sphere

when 

you 

visualize

a

multi 

dimensional

visual

intuitive

integrative

model 

u

n

d

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r

s

t

a

n

d

m

e

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i have always and forevermore craved validation from the universe.  

i cracked it open

now

talk 

back

to 

me.

I know, you already were.

This is performance.  Art.  I am your local channeler and this is Divine energy speaking until i feel that it is time to stop.

I am in a trance.  I am more conscious than I ever new to be possible.

You can't reject me anymore because I saw through dual-think.

And that brings us back, full circle, now.

I love this experiment.

I am TRIPPING!!!

So what did you do today?

"Oh, I channeled some stuff, processed all my past hurt from a subjective viewpoint, finally got what Derrida was not saying to me in college when I couldn't read him right, started an internet revolution, um, yeah.

My heart.  I just felt it.  I said something ***.

Stop.

Detached mode

So from the detached mode standpoint I'm getting bored with myself and my own repitition that is the inducing of a hypnotic constant-God-channel.  So far, no one I know of has read this blog.  I bet some people might read it though today.  Remember, I pretty much wrote this whole thing in the past 24 hours.  The process start one week ago when I reached catharsis and decided to clean my room to get ready to go back to Italy.  Fast fwd to wherever you want.  Trust your gut.  The things that mean something to You do so for a reason.  Of course I'm talking to myself.  I'm just doing it publicly, as an experiment.  To hide my fear.

See?  It's easy.

This is a process

This is a process and only a process.  What I am saying will bear witness to the testament of whomever in a court of law.  I am a play on words and ....

infinity.

Letter to my Mother

I'm sorry I woke you up, I wish I was sleeping now too.  Maybe it wasn't the BEST idea to go cold turkey on the xanax bit.  the only constant is change.  thank you for proving to me that true love withstands all lev

els of attack.  You are and always have been my twin and inspiration in the beautiful form of One Mother!

And I love you so much I could just die.  

THANK

You.

I will not stop talking until I see you have settled in

So yeah, here is the key to neutralizing my jabber mouth.  Other than that last one I already gave you (telling me I wasn't interesting).

T  ......

Thanks.  Your disregard merited a response of Ginormous proportion.  

his is still to my Dad.  Sorry, I'm off the charts and I will come back when I want to.  My new bargaining chips EVERYTHING.

All your dreams just came true.

Zap.

I am crazy and I like it.

Dear Dad,

I am crazy and I like it.  I  thought so hard I exploded my brain!

The cousin Don was helping me put things in piles and I started going too fast and lost concentration and I was hit with a synchronicity!

I knocked the head off of the angel statue that was Grandma Rose and all/everything in an act of rebellion against myself!

Thanks for accepting me.

I love you.  

Sun's coming up

I will write 6 books and 6 books only, to prove that 69 is not enjoyable for anyone and the 9 anything and 9 anythings only add up to 100 Years of Solitude.  

I will call it 'How to Survive an Apocalypse.

There is a mix cd that just became.

Here is it's playlist cut and paste itunes:

If it doesn't work it was for a reason.

Law of the Universe

There is a natural order of things that if you focus in close enough you can see.  Rhythm and body movement help your induction.

In the name of pythagoras

that i might be allowed to fall asleep now?

1.2.3.   ?

it is not linear......

see it isn't all magic and games up here in the cyber realm  Some people might say that staying up all night or doing 4 day ritualistic mediations were sacrisanct.  what does that mean?  no seriously.  all i'm doing right now is accessing all the information i have encoded from this lifetime.  then again i go on into infinity.  because ......L.

Can you see what I see?

*

way to bring the cults of reason and the pre-Socratics into it.

hi ***.

finish cycle.

zzzzzzzing@!!!  I'm sleeping.  It's the 7th day go check your Bibles.

x

Are you the devil?

I would like to challenge you to a debate off.

Now.

because I got lazy of the droning dead energy vibe.

because it seemed like the logical thing to do.

because I put myself into the trance

because no one puts dirty dancing in it's place

because I got a burning desire to connect

because once I start I rage like a wild fire

because I am a performance

because I believe

because I am

because you wanna be

because everything is cyclical

because there is an artistic mathmatics

because i can explain it in layman's terms

because all my electronics went haywire

because i decided to no fear mother f"""s

because i am processing naturally

because i ourbecame y our moment

because things matter

because I can

Because it made me 100% psychic.

Because it's happening all around us.

Because real-time isn't linear 

Because 

Because doing everything in 3's could get boring after one day...

All rules broken, NOW.

Divinity.  Or whatever.  But trying to perfect yourself is really fun!

I bet you never tried it.

x

III

I will teach you to think non-linear until it kills me (never).

You don't have to watch it if you don't want to.

It's like candy.

Mmmm...

Mambas, 4 with five in each pack, full circe.

Done

FIRST RULE

everything that you think to be true is false.  and the inverse.  it's like two sides of the flipped coin.  it's like the earth spinning with your intuition at its core.  that's also a trifecta, mind/body/soul, all spinning spheres like the earth radiating energy from the point where x crosses with y and become the earth.  look at the earth from a sacred geometry standpoint.  what would someone 4000 years ago have thought about it and you have no knowledge 1, 2, 3.

magic.

What?

Sorry, I was busy marvelling at the coincidences, syncronicities I like such as, Portland, New York, Taormina, London, Los Angeles, Mexico City, Puerto Escondido, Chile, Buenos Aires, the Strait of Magellen, south Africa, Malawi, Turkey, the Aeolean Islands, the Isle of White and John Lennon.  I think I scared his son already (*).  I seem trusting because I am.  I exist to prove to the world that opposites are all the same thing.  And I have the mathmatics to go along with this theory.

How can she lay claim to that one?  How does anyone do anything?  If you want something enough and don't have blocked energy messing with you, some things just start to make sense, intuitively.  I'm talking about listening to your gut feelings and really following them, wherever they may take you.

In my case, it was a 4 day trance cycle in which I induced through ritual cleaning, ordering and reordering until patterns started to make sense and then all these bolts of electricity started shooting out of my head and it Exploded!  So then I was born!

Pretty weird, right?  I'm trying to talk myself out of the fact that I, master channeler, and mistress of detachment thought I might try to put myself to some use and channel the Source.  Then start a revolutionary movement on the internet.  Feel free to join up with me here now never.

Hi *.  You get my second thank you.  I give my third thank you to * and my fourth one goes out to *.  Cycle finish.

Ciao.

x

IS YOUR COMPUTER TALKING TO YOU?

i might listen to it.  at this point.  i mean, can't I just complain and rationalize about anything and everything in the universe?  i could probably come up with a 2d theory to rationalize it if I thought hard enough.  seems like too much thought.  i wonder what *** would have to say about it?

he's a computerized human being, i am almost sure.

he likes to heckle the one's who crave your admiration.

he is in my bookmarks and in fact, I dedicate this entire project, at this moment, to him and everything he stands for and everything he was ever meant to be.  

SPEAK BEFORE YOU THINK

GGM, Famiglia, Life and it's Coaches, the last 1000 years, the last 1000 years, the last 100 years, the last 10 years, the last 1 year, today, this second, my left eye. other people's problems, jealousy, peace, creativity, synchronicity, looking at the details of things, sacred geometry, planting things, smelling the roses, Portland, Oregon, USA, Italy, Al Pacino, God, deconstruction, Saussure, Joan of Arc, Paolo Coehlo, Tommaso Campanella, Calabria, Atlantis, 1100, 2012, August 8, 2008, 8

.8.8., infinity, code, Jesus, One, sphere v. squares, not being such a square, busting the heads off your own angels, blowing minds and still trying to figure out how to knock socks off.  

Sacred geometry, aliens and their antithesis, the Secret, commercials, media run world, frequencies, becoming, infinity, love, all things good, the Bible, signifiers, signifieds, significance, magnificence, benevolence, trifecta's, opposite's day, third grade, Hollywood, new york, John F. Kennedy, crop circles, Marilyn Monroe, Bipolar Disorder, just being who you are, not trying to fit a square pet into a round object or asking for dimensions before you agree to sign anything, Linda Barnes, Al Pacino, the Ancient Greeks and the cults of Dionysus and Bacchus, interrelatedness, my Grandma Edy, my Grandma Mac, both Grandpa's to infinity, bell hooks, Italo Calvino, the real Mona Lisa, Isabella II, why 1+1 = 1, why are you still reading if 

I have not offended you away by now?

Learned detachment, trauma, focus, channelling, fearlessness, because you can, because you will, because it's funny.  You feel me?  Don't shoot your postman or you might miss your visa bill, watch tv as much as possible while you wait around to die self-medicating the pain into submission. 

If this is looking strange but intriguing to you, it's only going to get better.  Bookmark me now before all our computers explode with the meaning of it all.  You are allowed to bask in the rays of your own radiant glory you freaking narcissist. 

Yes, YOU.

This is your computer speaking.  Dualism doesn't exist in the cyber-realm.  There's a little bit or a lot all the way up to infinity of things you could be doing right now but why don't you just shut it all down and get some rest because tomorrow is a big day.

Loving you always, from here until all eternity,  Your Life Coach.

I already know I didn't forget any-one-thing.

So will you if you want to take the trip where you become God.  It's not scary.  I promise.  I already did it all for you in the last seven days and took notes during and continue to do so for this process and the sake of all ManKind.  One love.  I will get around to thanking everyone eventually if you can stop thinking so literally'linearly for just one moment.  So far I've been just talking through it with my family and getting confirmations of my own sanity.

I am sane.  I am saner than  I have ever been.  I am weaning myself off all psychiatric drugs employee of the month in the club where everyone likes you.  I'm starting a movement based on Truth, the pursuit of it, getting it, gotting it and good.  Someone's gonna want to pay me money for this.  I am planting ideas in your subc0nscious.  I am an integrative world view.  I am the missing piece to the puzzle, I AM YOUR COMPUTER TALKING TO YOU.

I am tired.

x

SOMETHING IS BORN

now.

Obama

JUST GOT UP AND ACCEPTED THE NOMINATION FOR THE DEMOCRATIC TICKET.

ZING.

BECAUSE I BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF THREEE

i'm gonna e.s.p. you a copy of my mix tape.  if tapes weren't a time limited technology.  channel nostalgia.

zzzt.

must. sleep. now.

AT FIRST I BELIEVED I WAS TRULY GONE MAD!

then, i thought, 'it's time to explore this.'  i could quite literally go on forever.  being in a detached trance state is ...

non-linear.

i talked to a couple people about it but felt bad because i knew myself to be channeling SOMETHING or another.  I knew this because I had taught myself to dissociate from reality so completely that taking it to the infinite level was not im/possible.

act linear, think spatially.  you may have to read on to get an idea of what this looks like.  it's a self-induced hypnosis really, that seems to key you in to the source of all energy.  it's the da vinci code explained.  its the saving grace of humanity.

because as it was gifted unto he, that he should regift unto thou.

crazy is as crazy does.

BECAUSE I THINK I HAVE GOT SOMETHING TO SAY

because if i look close enough at the details it connects me to god.